Extension of Bla Bla Bla

I received an email from my so-called colleague in Singapore. Read what she wrote:

or maybe 30 months ago right before I deliver Jayden, I went to have dinner with an ex colleague of mine. And I cried at the dinner table telling her about a problem.

Today, at the lunch table i complaint about the same problem.

But this time, I didn't cry.

Cos maybe I'm immune to it.

Yeah, maybe.

Why? Cos that lady O's aunt drove! Good news for me!

Then i can CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY all I want when I drive.

Ahhhhhh the feeling is just so nice to get it all out!

Aunty, you better drive for the rest of the days okay?

Yeap I woke up at 5 am. My body was like leaking all over. The nose, the eyes the everywhere. The freaking air cond was so damn cold and someone just gotto pull the whole damn blanket over to his side and since we changed to king size bed and we sleep so damn far from each other, lagi teruk. Pissed, I woke up and folded the mountain of clothes. Mountains and mountains of it. I wonder how come I need to wash the clothes and fold the clothes all the time and not someone else.So I folded my own clothes and Jayden's of course and left someone's clothes out. Just think that he doesn't deserve it. Let it grow into a huge mountain and see if moss and fungus will grow out of it. Proly I will do that to his dirty laundry too. Yeah, why not? As if he will give a damn about it.

Then I started to sweat. Niamah, why isit so damn hot at 6 am in the morning? I took a shower and came out very fresh and I boiled some water and washed the rice cooker. I tell you, I dun have any freaking idea why he must leave the rice cooker unwashed in the sink. But if I were to do that, he'll nag me? And each time he leave it there I gotto bloody wash it cos I need to cook rice the next day?

So here I am at 6:50 am on our 4th anniversary, waiting for the sun to rice. opps.. already naik.

So, selamat ber-anniversary.

I took 2 days leave. Jayden skipped school today. Why?

Because we wanted to accompany his dad for his birthday.

And what happened? He arranged to meet his customer on his leave. He said he will be back at 10 ish before 11. And he came back at 12.

Jayden was already sleeping that time.

So what's the point? I don't know.

Yesterday was the same. He went to work.

I should've gone to work and J should've gone to sch. At least I won't waste my 2 days unpaid leave.

I asked him when did he plan to do his own business.

He replied-one week ago.

And so I asked him , how come you didn't share it with me and now totally ruin my plan to be SAHM.

And he replied "Oh yeah...my mistake"

And that's all he said.

...is when I drive.

I can cry with my shades on. And no one will know.

I can laugh. And people will think I'm talking on the phone.

Or I can sing out loud. And who cares if everyone is looking at me?

I just hate it when I can't cry or laugh or sing.

Especially when I need to car pool everyday with Lady O's aunt.

Damn.

I don't how I should feel now.
Or what I should do next.
All I know is, I am so lost.
Should I be angry that my son's nanny rejected my son?
Or should I be happy that she helped me decide when to place him in kindy when I have been wondering when is the right timing?
Or I should be sad that she gave me the reason as if my son is some sick kiddo that is out of control?
Or should I be extra angry that she helped the other girl to bully my son all the time?
Or Should I be sad that she has totally no love for my son whom she has taken care for 25 months and 1 week now.
And everything about him is all being pushed to me.
I have to decide where to put him after sch.
I have to decide how izit going to be during the changes between nanny and daycare.
I have to come out during working hour to pick him him.
I have to wake up earlier to get things ready for him.
I have to find the water container and dammit i cannot find the straw for it.
I have to make sure he wake up earlier so that he won't be blur when he's at sch.
And now I have to decide whether I should give up my job and stay home.
Or let him be in the daycare.
How ? How? How???????

Didn't sleep well last night.

The lil one crawled over and started rolling and did some breakdancing while sleeping.

So i got irritated and scooped him up and placed him back to his own bed.

Hub was outside doing his thing again.

And then I couldn't sleep. Thinking about so many things. And end up wetting my pillow. *sigh*

And then, i couldn't sleep anymore and finally my hp rang at 7.25am. Time to get up and work.

And now..i'm having headache.

A man thought that by keeping all the problem to himself, he is doing a good thing for all.

He never know that if the wife knows that he is keeping a secret all by himself, the wife is also worried sick.

And how stupid can a man be , thinking that he can hide problems from the wife?

And the wife is super duper good in thinking about nonsense. What do you expect a pregnant woman to think when the husband can't sleep at night, checks email in the middle of the night, say that he is super duper tired all the time, No mood, No nothing, not even anything.

So instead of thinking about not affecting the wife's thinking, he is making the wife going nutz.

When the wife told him, he will say sorry. And then...the story begin again.

Sigh.....................................



  

I woke up at 6am this morning. I had a dream and it made me cry abit.

And then I got up. I folded the clothes. Tonnes and tonnes of it.

Washed the dishes and cleaned the kitchen.

And mopped the entire house. Nearly trip, but luckily didn't. I think my baby is protecting me..i guess. Or izit other way round. Hmmmm

And i washed the porch.

And now I'm here...la la la...

After a few round of measuring and checking out the place, and also a few days for me to design it, finally yesterday we're supposed to propose it to the customer.

And guess what?

Want to do renovation in May.

Stupid or not?

It's not like the renovation was an impromtu plan. It was planned long time ago and now only they inform us that they're renovating it.

And before that I've asked them so many times "Any requirements for the TV??". No requirement.

Now they want 32" LCD TV. Luckily we haven't buy the tv and the dvd player yet.

Well, sit and wait for the renovation plan lor.

Waste my time designing only. Stupid.

I did, last night. For the first time.

I can never sleep if I'm angry or sad.

But I managed to do it last night.

Probably I'm just too used to it.

Yeah, maybe.

A few hours ago, our warehouse staff walked up and said "WAH GOT BIRTHDAY PRESENT!" and he passed to Lady O.

Lady O was gleeming, so happy.

Then the rest said "WAH WINNIE THE POOH SAMO!" her smile got bigger and bigger.

Then her facial expression changed. This is SASHA'S WAN LA!

NGEK NGEK NGEK......Malu NYe...

The parcel is from Mott for J's birthday..

You say...malu or not?

Muahahahahhaahhaahhaahhahahaha

The other day Lady O dragged me into the room. i thought I sure kena left right and centre. mana tau she asked me for advise. Muahahahaha u read correctly. She asked me for advise.

She asked me if my previous sales guys similar to the ones we had now. She wanted to tembak the guys but i defended them and twist the story, saying that there wasn't clear guideline for them to do things. Anyway its too late to ask them to do anything to achieve the target. There's only less than a week to cny, that's when the promo stop.

Then she dragged them into the room and nagged them. Luckily both the sales guy and I are quite close. So we gave each other hints before any of us kena anything.

MY BACK!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHH!!! ITS SO SO SO SO SO PAINFUL!!!!!

I feel like crying now. Its hurting me so badly.

UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

I want MASSAGE!!!!!!!!!

*throwing tantrum and rolling on the floor like Jayden*

nevermind..... I tahan....i tahan and I wait......

Nevermind....


Sigh....

Remember the blur girl in my office?

She told me the other day that I looked like I have lost weight. Yeah I did. I lost 3 kgs in this month itself.

And she said another thing after the compliment:


Actually you're VERY FAT when you first came that day.

Hallo? I was 50kgs when I first came and I'm already being complaint that I looked bonie. And she's telling me that I'm Fat?

If you've read earlier, I have mentioned that my 2 bosses are...ahem....

Anyway, one is kwailowe and another is Chinese sporean.

The Chinese, very calculative till every cents.

The Kwailowe, wanted everything fast. Anything that can stop you being slow, change it.

So I have been complaining about my MAC, that it is super slow and something is wrong with it. Kwai was here last last week. He said buy new one. Then he went back to spore.

Then the chinese one came, I said the same thing and he said "MAC IS LIKE THIS WAN. VERY SLOW WAN. You go and settle the problem yourself la. When there is a problem, I expect you to tell me solution. Don't tell me the problem."

Fine. So I went to Apple and asked about it. And they said that we need to send it in to reformat it. So I came back and told him and he said "Okay let me check and see how first".

Fine. And he went back to spore.

Last week both of them came to Msia. True enough the MAC was about to die. And it DIED! Kapoosh Kapish! all my new designs ...gone just like that. I told the Kwai about it and he freaked. "WHAT???ALL GONE????" He was so pissed!

And they fought about it. Like husband and wife.
The kwai accused the sporean that it was his fault for not buying a new MAC.
The Chinese blamed me saying that I never settle the problem. *raise eyebrow*
The kwai defended me and scold the Chinese.
The chinese jealous.
The kwai said "I WANT TO BUY SACHA (yeah he calls and write my name like that) A NEW MAC. IF NOT SHE CANNOT DO HER WORK."
The chinese scold back. FINE!!! BUY NEW ONE FOR HER!!! SPEND 10K for ONE MAC. FINE!!!!

And then I realised that I have saved some in my personal thumb drive. And I told the Kwai about it and he was so relieved.

I told him " You better get me one thumbdrive".

And he replied "SACHA I BUY YOU ANYTHING!!!!!"

Of course the Chinese were jealous like mad.


And they went out to Ikano to look at the price.
And they came back.
And the Chinese told me, "Sasha I will get my cousin who is working MAC USA to get Someone to call back and get someone to get cheaper MAC for you. So you wait okay?."

The kwai Scolded him, "HOW U KNOW WHAT SHE WANT? YOU KNOW THE SPECIFICATION?"

Niamah, the whole day we just sit here and listen to them argue like husband and wife. FIne here Fine there.

And you know what?
The chinese came to my table and gave me the paper (the price list) and said
"NAH SASHA. YOU CHOOSE MEANS NO MORE COMPLAINT FROM U ABOUT THE MAC LA!!! CHOOSE LA!"

WTF. I need to choose and I cannot have problem in the future? what kind of crap is that. It's a machine not like its god cannot go rosak or something. I'm not gonna make the decision. I just smiled and kept quiet. It's kinda fun looking at the bickering at each other. haha

The kwai came to me and said "Sacha I'll go spore and check out the MAC okay?"

:D okay ...I said.

The chinese is angry and jealous. Eh not my prob that your bf is doing the right thing to be Nice to the staff okay.

So now, I'm MAC-less and I'm using my own laptop to work. *sigh*

You see when they fight I suffer the most. And you know what, I'm not involved in the love triangle also why I kena leh?